Bethy21's Blog

Current Mood: Worried

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So, long time no type....So I'm just get to the point so that I don't bore you with details of why. So what have I been up to?

SCHOOL: Nothing to report here. Why? I dropped them...Lately I have been thinking of what I wanted to do and school just isn't in my plans. I have no idea what I want to study in school. So the whole time that I'm attending I;m just wasting money on classes that I hate and don't bother to go to. I decided to drop because my mother told me that I have to pay her the seven hundred and thirty dollars that I charged to the credit card! I can hardly pay dad for the car insurance. I'm sure she meant later but I lost it.

Yes, I cried. I have no clue what to do about the whole thing. And I'm just a big baby about my money. When I get my check I like to spend it on....ME! I don't want to give it to someone else but this is a part of life. I wouldn't care if I had a major and was going to have a great job in a couple of years. So I dropped out officially yesterday. I just have no clue how to tell them. Has soon has I see my mom I'll probably start crying about the whole deal. She never lets me talk! And its just so frustrating to try and explain something when she doesn't listen. I'll tell her how I feel but then she'll be like, "No that's not it. I think it went this way..." And she'll tell a long story I'll just want to day a little inside.

And on top of it more bills will be headed my way. So its just going to be a continuous cycle until I pay it off. After that I'll be free to finally more out of the house. So expected moving date is in 30 years...

WORK: I'm working to pay bills and its all I can focus on obviously. I need someone to keep my away from stores though or I'll not pay my dad like this weekend. I was suppose to pay but it was 40 % off week at work! Come one now! 40% !!! I had to make some sacrifices and he as one of them. And to make things worse they are cutting hours. If they don't go back up I'll have to get a new job or worse two of them. But at least I'd have check for myself and the other for bills so it might not be so bad.

Work and school was my focus for while and now its work. Other than that there isn't much to my life. OH! There is one other thing. I got a piercing! I got a Monroe and I love it! I'll post a picture eventually for those who have no clue what I'm talking about. Anyways, until next time....

Bout time! Hahaha. I know. I have been busy with work. Just that. I know last time, I think, I told you about school. Well, that didn't go so well. I dropped one of the two classes I was taking. I couldn't remember to go so I figured it was better to just go ahead and drop. Has for the other its only a matter of time....

Right now it never comes to mind. I never ever think about what I'm going to do in the future. I just live each day has it hits me. My focus right now is working to pay off some bills to my parents that I am behind on. Then I was thinking about moving out once I'm caught up. After that...who knows.  I just don't care at the moment.

I think it would be best to drop out and go back to school when I'm more mature. When school is at the top of my list and not on the back burner. I have things that I feel is important to me right now that my parents don't understand. I mean I like work cause it is a place to go and talk to the few friends that I have. I just like not having to stress about getting work done and just relax and think without being pressured to do so.

Other than that, there isn't much to my mediocre life....Until next time....

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